It is 10:36 a.m. and I'm just sitting here on the couch watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy. Sad, I know. I was laid off from my job a few weeks ago and even though I absolutely hated what that place had become, I had a purpose. It filled my day and for 9 hours, I had purpose.
I don't know what to do with my days.
At first, I filled the time with housework and yard work, tended to my vegetable garden and cleaned. I usually love to cook so I've tried new recipes, some good, some not so much. Even that is becoming hard to do because I have no one around to share it with or to enjoy it.
There's only so much of that you can do.
I suffer from depression and anxiety and it's been very hard to get motivated to find a job and not having one keeps me stuck in a dark place. How do you win?
I have a son, and I love him tremendously. But I still have a void that lingers.
I don't talk to many people, and the ones I do speak to don't understand. I can't share and get everything out of my head. There's a lot of judgement but not much understanding.
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